Chapter 49: Jadedisland Day
Empress & Her Spectacle: Jadedisland Day
August 16th was my birthday! I turned 25 years old, which means I'm at my quarter-life crises. However, in all the life I've lived, I have to say I'm proud of the warrior queen that I am. It takes a particular type of magic to keep going in life, and I'm fortunate that I've found it for myself. I'm celebrating my life. There were many instances where I wasn't sure how long it would be with all my health issues and complications, but I'm still here. I'm the magical girl I wanted to be.
If you haven't heard it yet, let me tell you who and what Jadedisland is. I'm a collection of mental fragments, something that once was broken and made whole by my own pink-tinted will. I survived living with a cocaine addict, a split family, poverty, homelessness, reoccurring illness, internalized racism, being a social pariah, and repeated instances of sexual assault. These things each devastating in their own way didn't stop me. I write, I wept, and I poured myself into language and character. I took solace in myself. Within isolation, I started exploring the parts of me that held a loud voice. It showed me how I experience the world. Jadedisland is the home to my imagination, my courage, my emotive voices, and my magic. Whenever you see me advocating it's because I keep trying to do better, and I know I can help or encourage others to do the same.
Jadedisland is me. I'm each and every facet of myself that was born out of tragedy yet turned into something substantial. I'm not always positive, or a smiling force but I'm here. Today is my day to remind myself that no matter what, this voice matters. I turned self-hate into self-love. I made the fluidity of the energy of my emotions to keep going forward. So yes, I'm twenty-five. I feel like I've lived the life span of three times that. Magical life isn't all sparkles and kawaii, it's also perseverance and overcoming monsters. I'm still fighting, I'm still healing, and there is so much for me to learn. This platform is the place in which I do it. I'm grateful that you are here, and that you are listening or reading my words. You see my world and still appreciate these flawed corners, but the treasure of my Jadedisland is authenticity.
This is why I give greetings to you magical being, I'm Jade. Today is the day I turned 25. I've been kawaii for a little over a year now and will be until I die. You'll see that many days I've got the social energy of a cactus, and others the joy of sparkling gem. I love anime, hello, kitty, poetry, and role-playing games. Writing and active advocacy is for black femmes, mental health, and self-expression. After all of this, my purpose and dream are to be a well renowned kawaii journalist. I'm not the brightest bulb, and my grammar can suck. I can experience anger, but more often, it's for the sake of others. I'm fiercely loyal to my tribe, and I'm empathic and always welcome others to my family. I shy away from inconsistency, false promises, and dis-genuine people. I'm afraid of insects, water, and boredom. Tomorrow I'll be marking the next chapter of my life. I expect this chapter riddled with more smiles, less cruelty, and an outstretched hand. I won't leave people behind because I know the feeling. I think when it comes to being named jade, there's is always a little luck and prosperity.
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